that’s something spooky, but not heavyhanded spooky — so, you want this scary thing back, and maybe fear isn’t so bad, even though the moment the fear and the anger and the flood of chemicals blows ’round your brain you’re thinking BAD BAD BAD BAD, maybe there’s something about it that’s good. We like to think in allegory and fable, but rarely in life do we get the whole story quick enough that we don’t have to face the walls of uncertainty and ambiguity. “So the moral is: _____________”
I’m intrigued by this story… it seems very personal so I’m not sure what to say, except that while I can’t know exactly what you’ve been through, I hope and pray that you can hold onto that same passion for life again. I have to agree with david, I hope you find the energy. If it matters, I’m praying about this.
The degree of vulnerability and honesty you bring to vlog posts is inspiring to me. This one especially. As a relatively new father myself, I really resonated with the line, “i spend a lot of time doing stuff i don’t remember.”